MengChing, Kailin and I

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Hehehe, met them up on Wed @ Orchard. It was a great fellowship! But somehow we kept talking about guys though we tried to digress but in vain. Wahahahaha... It will always remain an interesting topic no matter how often it's been said lol...

Anyway, since it's private stuff I shall only write about my opinions. Hahaha. First and last entry about this. Lol...

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I remember once during Sec 3, I used to keep a diary. Now it's in front of me and it's weird reading back my thoughts 5 years ago cos it sounds kiddish. Lol. But it's still the familiar me... Though I'm now more matured, I noticed that my handwriting looks uglier. =)

Ok ok let's skip the intro. Lol..

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Somewhere between August and December 02, I wrote about the type of guys that I like... (Ya very free then) And out of the 9 points written, 4 really don't matter anymore. And those 4 are actually about the physique. Haha. Anyway, I think the most important thing to look out for in a guy is his degree of responsibility!!!! Is he responsible with his words (/promises), actions and money? And of cos whether he loves God a lot!

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Unfortunately, there're only a handful. So those are really special haha.

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And yup sadly that's about all that I have to say LOL...

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My diary is too distracting I have to read it! Never knew my life stories are so interesting (to me la) HAHA... Hmmm Maybe I can compile some and sell it and be the next up and rising Anne Frank!!!! -_- Haha. Oh dear does that mean I have to die first before selling???

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Ok ok I think it's good for me to go off now...

HoHoHo! Merry Christmas everyone!!!!!!!!

It's by far the most fun Christmas for me! Lol. Hope that yours is great too!

Shall sum it up with a few pics... Lol...

Marilyn and I at Jurong West church. Lol... Great company!

An escalator of carolers!!!

At the Esplanade!!! SO wish I was part of them!!!!!!! It was an exuberant performance!

Rushed down at a last minute's notice to support him..........*Sigh* We had a reversal of role this year hahahaha.. And then we stayed back to watch the ACJC's choir performance with Elgin... We watched in awe! They were fantastic.

Trying to act cute with Dennis' act cute hat which gave me a fright at my door... Lol...

Overnight Mahjong session at my house on Christmas Eve LOL.... Everyone's addicted wahahaha. Yay.

Ser & Cai still looking great in the crazy hour of the night!

Me and my Dad at Expo service... Trying to stay/look awake with only 2 hours of sleep! Lol.

Me, Alice & Cai.. 3 of us!!!!! Girls I grew up with in secondary school... Of course not forgetting Bird!!! Whom I met in Primary 5. Awesome friendships!!! Cheers.

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Alright shall keep it short.... Enjoy your holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Had a Christmas celebration at my house last night... It was much fun hosting the event together with the tremendous help from my friends! Really touched and grateful for all their effort~

Bird and Cai leading the games! Lol... "steamed turkey"!! LOL..

The winning team.. Lol..

This is really cute!!! Girls singing carols lol..

Dennis n Kailin~ Err Dennis... Trying hard I can see lol..

When the music fades, mahjong session began! And it lasted till 3.30am LOL I can't believe it. And Ravi actually learnt and played with us!! Superb~~ lol...

Lots of cleaning up to do! But it's ok haha hope that everyone enjoyed. Hehehe..

*It's all about You...*

Dear Meng Ching,

Thanks for that surprise call last night. If you did notice I sounded lackadaisical at first due to my stupidity earlier. It was really fun talking to you though I don't normally talk on the phone hehe... Thanks for teaching me about life and how to be a better person and for impacting my life in ways you may not know... Looking forward to Wednesday!

Love,
Aileen

Hmmm, recently there is a sudden influx of people complaining to me about arrogant people!!! Whose noses are so high they touch the sky... I always remember this quote: Don't let success go to your head or failure go to your heart.

It's such a simple yet impactful sentence... I always remind myself where I came from and how far God has brought me... And I will feel so touched knowing that I'm not fighting battles alone but with mighty God.

We are also where we are because along the way, people gave us second (or third or fourth...) chances to improve... Aren't we grateful for those? Instead of giving up on us because we are not good enough. So similarly, we must also give others time to grow and learn...

Actually I am talking to myself, so I should replace all the 'we's with 'I's hahaha.. But I think it sounds fine too with 'we's lol...

Really looking forward to orchestra potluck later!!!!!!!!! LOL...

Have a great day, smile! =)

Hehe, today must have been the best Monday ever. =) Though I couldn't sleep last night, I managed to wake up before the alarm went off at unbelievable 7.35am. And the miracle was that I still felt very much alive today hehehehe... Maybe I'm subconsciously happy and excited hahaha... For what I do not know... Maybe just a little bit of every thing?

Lol... Maybe it's the Christmas season? *Can you feel the love in the air?* Lol... But I guess I won't be doing much this year... Just wanna have a cosy merry little Christmas in a little quiet corner... And emo? Lol...

My dream has been crying out to me... Gosh... It's managed to get my full attention... I think about it every day and night... Whenever I'm alone... And wherever I go... It's been kicking on the inside of me wanting to come out and manifest itself! I simply can't ignore it. Though I may not know when it will come to past, but I know surely that I must continue to carry and guard this dream. Be it 10, 20, 30 years... I am willing!

Hmmm, sidetrack, hehe.. Hmmm... Is anyone free this Thursday? It's a public holiday... And hmmm... I was thinking of cleaning up my WHOLE house using the whole day... =) So does anyone wanna help me fulfil this desire? -_- I can make it fun! Lol... Only females la~ Haha. The more we get together the merrier we'll be! Lol..

Father: What time are you sleeping Aileen?
Me: Soon...
Father: I hope it's not soon... It's now.

Haha and now he's criticising on some of my 'brilliant' ideas and coming up with his own for this Friday's Christmas celebration... Ok ok he win~ hahaha. I admit his are better hahaha.

Have a lovely Christmas everyone. =)

Hmmm... I really don't know what's on my piano teacher's mind... She has actually completed teaching me 3 exam pieces in 4 or 5 weeks... And I have run through 2 songs with her already... While playing the 2nd piece for her today, she asked if I did practise... Of which I answered "Ya... But maybe not enough..." However, at the back of my mind, I know that I have practised my best this week... Making use of every available and appropriate time (which is not a lot) I have at home as much as I could to practise...

I seriously don't know if I'm slow or whether she has high expectation of me? And is this a common practice by piano teachers? Or is this the way to getting a Distinction? Does anybody know...

Perhaps I don't even need to get an answer to those... But rather to do my best in things I put my heart and mind into...

And the last thing I want is to have a phobia towards the Piano..

On a higher note, I'm really happy it's Friday already muahaha...

*Be still and know that He is God*

Wow wow... I'm so proud of MARILYN CHIA HUI LING (Xie Huiling)!!!!!!!!!!

Got the news today that she has passed the audition and is now a cellist in Singapore Youth Chinese Orchestra!!! Together with Elgin I suppose hahahaha. So I can foresee attending a lot of chinese orchestra concerts next year... Lol... Dong dong chiang!

All her hard work finally paid off!!! It's a damn happy piece of news and I'm so excited for her! Seriously. (As well as my dinner treat Lol) I think Music is very straight-forward and frank. Your standard of playing starkly shows the amount of hard work you put in... There's no shortcuts!!!

As an amatuer cellist still on my way, I'm really inspired. After hearing her side of story... I have a new motivation to spur me for piano and cello... Shan't say it here though. Like what Elgin said "What can't kill you makes you stronger." How true.

Though we may often hear a lot of voices telling us we can't do it, ultimately it's God's still small voice that I want to choose to listen to. Because His promises never fail and His words will still stand even when Heaven and Earth pass away.

Hi Friends,

The weather has been weird lately. Please take good care of your health and keep yourself warm.

Love,
Aileen

Words cannot describe how sian I am.

I feel that my my piano development is very much hampered. Shan't go into details... It drives me mad when I finally have a free night to practise but is disallowed/scolded. #(^!*#&!()#& It's like teasing a starving person with food he can't reach. It's total cruelty...

Have been waking up before the alarm clock went off these few days... That totally can't be me... But well, I guess it's due to a few things that have been weighing on my mind... Nothing serious though. Hehe, most of the time it's due to me pushing myself too much... Or having too high an expectation for myself...

Had a MORNING jog with Cai ytd and I discovered the shocking fact that my stamina has drastically deterioriated to a miserable state. Xiang dang nian..~ Sigh nvm. I must slowly regain my stamina. This won't do!!! Hardly ever exercise for the past 6 months after I tore a tendon in my left leg...

Anyway after the short jog, we sat and talked about some stuff... Though it was a quick one, but it was a quality time spent. Learnt quite a bit from her too. =) Thanks Cai, love.

Thanks Marilyn for your encouragement too. I was quite appalled at my own stupid random thought of even wanting to give up on the cello......... What happened to the fighter inside of me??? No matter how tough... I must still press on... Shake away negative thoughts and take things a little step by a little step... Gotta master the art of SLOW PRACTICE. Hmm...

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As for piano... Thankfully I'm on par... My teacher made me do a piano exam marathon... She managed to complete teaching 2 songs in 3 weeks... and is starting on the 3rd one next week... Then I'll probably be done with all the pieces by the end of the year and starting on scales and aural next yr... It's quite fun though...

I think my father is very knowledgeable about the world... About what is going on and how to deal with people.... Which make me look naive in juxtaposition. Hmm... I must be more discerning. So gotta hang around more with our parents...

Everybody loves hamsters! Lol. Received a sms from my tuition kid "Aileen are u coming to fetch the hamster tommorrow? pls reply asap" LOL... So cute la! Lol... So now it's at the balcony.. Running spastically on the wheel every night and waking up later than me every morning. LOL..

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Ok just some random updates... Have a great week ahead, Be optimistic and smile at life!

Sometimes I lie on my bed at night thinking that I'm so weak and finding comfort in the knowledge that God is strong. I will feel so touched knowing that God is with me all the time... That's why I'm still very much in love with the song "You Are My All In All" which sings of how much we need God in our lives.

I was just telling Marilyn that life is so fragile and unpredictable... And it's always nearly the case when a family comes closer only after a tragedy. Why can't we be close even when everything is seemingly going right and not take each other's presence for granted...?

In a recent night, I watched a HK drama on TV when somehow a sentence in the subtitle struck me. "Give in and be more understanding." Think about sibling rivalry and rebellion towards our parents... A lot of times I have regretted my actions and the words I said and I have made a decision to just pause and not let emotions cloud my thinking.

Gotta take everything in stride. Though my brother still yells at me for playing the piano/cello sometimes, I admit I get angry/frustrated. However, recently I find myself giving in and stop playing (though reluctantly). I think as a big sis I gotta show him first that I respect his wish and hope that one day he will stop yelling at me when he knows that I do take his wish into consideration too.

Anyway, the point I'm driving at is to not be self-centered but to put ourselves in another person's shoes to understand the situation prior to the next action. At least that's what I'm telling myself to do now...

I can't stop staring at this picture... It's amazing how we become united as one. Simply amazing. Just ytd I told Marilyn that I took part in CO SYF in 2003 and she brought to my attention that 4 of us were actually competitors who took part in CO SYF that same year... And 4 years later, 4 of us come together and play as one in CHPO.. Even becoming good friends. Hehehe. Amazing. May we play together till we grow old! Lol... Must really treasure this friendship that we share.

It's really really important to have strong relationships in the orchestra... Not only can we flow together but we can also encourage and strengthen each other... And many many conflicts/politics can be avoided this way. It'll be meaningless to gather every week to play a few notes and then go our separate ways... Not even knowing the person you always sit next to...

Anyway, today is really an emo day for me... Partly due to the rainy weather at night which enhanced it.. And largely due to work... Brought this emo feeling to the rehearsal and wasn't really enthu about playing... It was so 'unprofessional' to let emotions (sian + stone) took over me while engaging in something else... Sigh~ Only me and Elgin turned up and I was so thankful he went... Phew~ He didn't bring his cello though so we took turns to play... And I realized my cello sound is/was horrible... Sigh~Plus my bow is balding... So I can foresee splashing more money on these... $~..

With all my half-hearted (nua) playing today.. I was actually surprised TatHaur came up to me and said that I "have improved by leaps and bounds"... Quite happy to hear that though I think he was too generous with his words... All thanks to Elgin who has helped me a lot tonight. As well as Lisa and Marilyn who have taught and guided me little by little every week. I always take mental notes of their little comments "here and there"... Though it can be quite stressful sometimes... But I know it's good for me at the end of the day... And not forgetting my cello teacher who is ever so patient with me...















Wonder if it's big enough to read... If I'm not wrong, you can click on it to enlarge. It's quite a good piece of news (Before friday), worthy of your one click...

Wahhh really siannnnnnn......................... Haven't felt like that for a long time....
SIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SIGH.....
SIAN.....

Going off to fight a big battle now. Gotta renew my mind!!!!!

I have never done this... But well Marilyn this is for u hahaha.

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1) Perform a piano concerto/piano solo
2) Travel the world
3) Give birth? Lol...

Three Names You Go By:
1) Alien
2) Squid
3) Eh...
(A lot others which you can see at the top right..)

Three Screen Names You Have Had:
1) Freakio (neopet's name lol...)
2) Faryio
3) leeN

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
Too shy to say lol...

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
1) Teochew
2) Hokkien
3) Child of God? =)

Three Things That Scare You:
1) Flying insects
2) Authentic nerds
3) Unusual sounds at night...

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1) Music
2) Money
3) Handphone

Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
1) Micheal Buble
2) Corrinne May
3) Norah Jones

Three Of Your Favorite Songs: *currently*
1) You are my all in all
2) Piano exam pieces (By default)
3) Mozart - Divertimento (By default also Lol...)

Three Things You Want In A Relationship:
For me to know and for my bf to find out Lol..

Three Physical Things About The Preferred Sex That Appeal To You:
1) Goatee??
2) Genuine smile... Not pervertic type hahaha
3) Hmmm.. Nothing in particular actually..

Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1) Playing music
2) Reading
3) Sports

Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
1) Play the piano
2) Watch a movie
3) Get out of this island

(This is really getting long... lol...)

Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered:
*Childhood*
1) Zookeeper (Bird don't laugh!!!)
2) Pianist (Still! On my way!!!)
3) Doctor *Grin* (You guys should rejoice I wasn't serious about that haha but I still love Biology though)
Maybe a writer/journalist?

Phew. Ok I really shall stop here... Lol...

Ytd was the best Saturday ever. I spent the entire day practising my piano exam pieces and I finally complete 1 & 1/3 songs hahaha. Ultra satisfaction. And I really still can't get enough of piano... lol... So wanna play it now... If only I live alone.. hehehe..

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Anyway my current favourite song is "You are my all in all"... Can't get enough of it too!!!! Been singing/humming it wherever I go and been playing on the piano also... It's a song I first heard and fell in love with a decade ago, and still loving it a decade later... It must have been written by some angel...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VlGFP51Ve7E&feature=related (You are my all in all)

It brought tears to my eyes when I saw this video... Take note of the audience. God loves us no matter who we are... The blind, deaf,mute,lame... God loves all of us. Nothing complicated... Really. This simple fact never fails to touch my heart... Cos sometimes I do bad things that must have broken God's heart... Yet He's always by my side...

Went to watch the T'ang Quartet performance with Marilyn.. Another irony: Throughout the entire perf, the thing I liked most was the 5 seconds of silence and stillness at the end of a song. No sound... No movement... Time stood still. I didn't breathe either. Haha. Amazing 5 seconds. I also like the encore piece most among all the other pieces hahaha. Strange me...

I think my life is quite ironic... Though I have taken part in numerous school sport competitions and performed on stage and stuff, I still haven't liked being in the faintest limelight and have never liked 'basking' in the attention. So I actually quite look up to those who can 'handle' being showered with attention. Hahaha. But well, I guess that's something innate which I can't and don't have to change cos that's what makes me, me.

So that's why since I was young, I have always dreamt of playing the piano in a little corner of a ballroom with people dancing to my music and not bothering about what I am doing. Hence the irony: I like to perform but I don't like the attention.

Very -_- right... hahaha.

Anyway, on my way home today, I was just thinking... This year has almost come to an end. It seems like it has passed in a flash doesn't it? So what makes us think that 50 years is long? It only takes 50 of such flashes before it's gone. And it's been said the rate of time (Ok the phrase "rate of time" is not factually correct since time is constant) increases proportionally with your age. So I have decided not to waste time trying to fulfill someone else's calling instead of mine cos that's not what I'm meant to do in this lifetime.

Lol, just discovered that Elgin can also be a good PI... Hahaha.

Highlight for today was a phone call from my tuition kid!!!! Totally out of the blue... It was such a pleasant surprise hehehe... She wanted to give me her pet HAMSTER!!!!!!!!!!! Cos her mum had just bought her a Jack Russell.. More reasons for me to stay at home!!! =) And for Bird to stay over. =P

Anyway, I told her mum that I wanna discontinue lessons with her cos I know I can't commit next year... And even if I can... I think I will faint from exhaustion hahaha. So, does anyone wanna take over me? Teaching 2 adorable Primary 6 girls, twice a week at night... English,maths & science. In the wild west.. =) The fee is not bad too.. lol.. But only female teacher required. Haha. And people who can commit and see them through PSLE... Let me know by this Sunday. =)

*Above all wonders the world has ever known...*

I think I have a really high maintenance husband... *All for love's sake became poor....* lol... Next up, I gotta get a new bow... And get the bridge fixed... So that'd be my most expensive Christmas present for anyone... Lol....

As for myself... I'd be satisfied enough with the priceless joy and memories he gave me and simply just having him around Lol... He's irreplaceable~ (until I find a better one though... LOL...) Of course the real husband should be one and only!!

Rehearsal today was quite lax and the cellists finally reunited! Full strength today wahaha. And I just discovered that Marilyn has been stalking me ominously and checking up my 'past' life... Lol... I also received a sms from Alice today that her classmate has been showing my almost untouched friendster around... She was actually quite protective over me lol... She's a nice great friend~~ But that didn't bother me too much though...

Another reason not to have Facebook. =P

Back to the rehearsal... I think today's was really kinda special though we did our usual stuff... But while playing a song which we were supposed to imagine us "walking through a garden looking at the birds and butterflies..." I think most of us would have to agree that that moment was magical... We somehow reached a point where it seemed like we had entered Narnia! Think the conductor went in with us as well... LOL...

Pure delight!

Went on a shopping spree today... Totally heartbroken lol...

Bought cello A string (thinnest string on a cello)- $30 , music stand - $17, Tchaikovsky THE NUTCRACKER cd- $13

Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also!

Met Elgin to go IKEA for lunch - $8... And I bought 24 colourful cups - $12 for cg...
Met Jeff, his wife and Matthew for dinner cum movie - $10 =P

='( But all these stuff are quite necessary though... I mean food and music... I can't live without either one man...

Anyway, there are a couple of movies that are quite appealing to me...
"Nanking" and "The Kingdom". Let me know if you're interested...

Tried to get my dad to sing for me while I played the chords on the piano... Lol.. But to no avail... It's really fun playing though I can only play the basic chords now... Addicted already!

*When I fall down You pick me up...*

It's my 5th time hearing my dad sang "Turn your eyes upon Jesus"... He thought it was a new song (because he just heard it).... and wanted me to "learn by heart".... Lol. Even asked if he sang it in tune... LOL...

I guess today was bittersweet... Finally had cello lesson lol... Love! But I think I have some spatial deficiency... Accidentally hit my teacher's cello not once... nor twice... but THRICE. I think I need to do some sort of repentance... Sigh...

Thou shall shower all cellos with TLC
Thou shall shower all cellos with TLC...

Anyway, after lesson, Leon came over to teach me some basic style of keyboard playing... My first baby step... Still on my way! Glad that I finally get this started.. and Leon must be very happy also... Lol...

Today's quite fruitful!! Came home early to practise on my cello n piano... Time seems to be limited for some reason... Probably it's because I can't practise late into the night (or when my bro is watching soccer or basically doing anything else!!!) so as much as I can, I will want to come home early... Though there was once I played "The Swan" at 1am... LOL.. A very emo experience... lol...

Really happy that I finally got my rhythm right for my exam piece... Burden lifted!! After 2 weeks... Lol... I think pianists have relatively bad rhythmic sense, since most of the time it's free expression solo playing... waha. So I really gotta work on my rhythm cos orchestra requires us to play together in beat.. especially since cello is playing the bass most of the time...

Hence, the metronome has just been promoted to being my friend! Lol... However, I still don't get it why my piano teacher doesn't want me to use the metronome....... Can someone explain?
She went "Huh... You want to use the metronome?" Haha confusion. She said that piano is not required to use one since we can't follow it anyway... Maybe piano playing is more 'flexible'??? Haha I don't know...












Looking good together huh lol...

My piano teacher has just started on my exam pieces... I can't imagine playing the same old 3 songs for half a year.... Plus there'll be a lot of new scales to learn... But I'm determined to do well!!!!!!!!!!!! So I'll probably devote a lot of my time in piano next year... Hmmm...

And YES Leon will be teaching me how to play the keyboard next week!!! I REALLY WANT to learn that and hopefully can play for the zone by next month? But I'm giving myself 5 months to familiarize with the keyboard and the style of playing... By then hopefully I can play for JAMs as well... Hehe... A lot of visualizing to do.... So please bear with me if you always catch me daydreaming. Lol....

I really believe that everything starts off with a thought... A vision... An action... And then a reality... The hardest is of course the 'action' as we are bringing the invisible realm into life... Think pregnancy as an analogy. But I guess every mother will forget the 9 months of hardship at the instance she sees her baby... =)

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Oh my gosh, my dad just sang!!!!! LOL... He was just beside me only lol.... So funny...

Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in His wonderful face
And the things of the earth
Will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace

LOL... My 3rd time hearing him sang that.... and then he fell asleep... LOL....

It's such a lovely song... One that I will love no matter how many times I hear/sing it... =)

Hehehehehehehehe....

I quite like today!!!!!!!!

1) Met up with Cai at Orchard! It's been long ago since our last 'outing' haha. Though I still felt a little bad for not being present at her birthday celebration on Monday... =( Anyway, Cai, know that you will always hold a special place in my heart... Forever and ever!!! No matter where I am or what I am going through, you will always be close to my heart!!! =) And of course no matter how many times you make fun of me or laugh at me!!!!!!!!!! LOL... Love...

2) Received a random call from Marilyn!! In the middle of the night... I thought the call would last only a few minutes since I don't usually talk on the phone... But it lasted a good 45 minutes... Which is considered very long for me already hahaha. Anyway, we talked about some orchestra issues which surfaced recently... AND AIYO I seriously can't stand the DRAMA... I hope that the case has been closed!!!!!! Hope that everyone can move on from here... And hope that next week's rehearsal will resume back to normal and that everyone will play music happily... =)

3) LOL... My father is really quite funny... Quite cute also... Wahaha, some of my closer friends would probably know... Right now he is showing me pictures on his handphone and making funny comments like "I took a picture of the moon..." "There see! I nearly fell into the sea below.." LOL... and he wanted me to change his wallpaper to a cheena junk we took at Clarke Quay.... LOL. "Huh! It's 1 o'clock already!! See la talk talk talk... Tmr have to wake up early!"

LOL... Er... If I talk funnily sometimes, you know who I learnt it from wahahha... Though he has his own set of problems, he still faces life light-heartedly... Which is also a survival skill we ought to learn!!! Man.. He's got the attitude...!

I think it's really tough being a musician... You gotta be mentally strong... Music makes up the reason for 70% of the time I'm sad. Gotta learn to take criticism and basically have to want to learn and improve despite unpleasant things we may hear... For me, I always tell myself, the more I don't 'feel' like doing something, the more I must do it!!! Though playing music is an emotional thing, we can't let emotions take over us!!! At least I'm trying hard not to...

When I first joined the orchestra... I was seriously vv discouraged by the things I hear... To the extent that I didn't wanna touch my cello... Or even wanna see it. That bad. A hell lot of self encouragement to do... and a hell lot of conquering all the negative thoughts inside my mind... And I'm sure I'm not speaking for myself only.

I talk to myself a lot... Sometimes I'm a bit too strict with myself even... "It was you who wanted to get in... and now that you're in it... FOR GOODNESS' SAKE PRACTISE HARD AND GET IN THE FLOW. STOP THIS WHOLE SELF-PITYING THING. WHATEVER COMMENTS THEY SAY, TAKE THEM AND WORK ON THOSE." Well, just a glimpse of what I say to myself sometimes... (Maybe that's why I'm always in my own world...? haha)

Of course all of us want to play well, but how many of us are willing to go through the learning process? Which sometimes involves you having to strip off all pride and struggling to move on while being pulled down by others. I think it's best not to see unpleasant comments as personal attacks but as learning points which we can improve on...

Just a 5 cents worth from an amatuer musician

Sometimes it seems that I'm climbing on a lonely mountain... I don't know what attracted me to it since most of the time I'm only trekking on rocks, with maybe a few sparse patches of greens... But I know that the moment I stop and think that I've reached my destination, that is the time I will begin to tumble backwards...

So by hook or by crook, I must stay strong and fight on! For as long as it takes... Last night, I kept telling God that He must help me!!!!!!! I can't do it on my own for certain. Cos right from the start I didn't even have the 'right' equipment to conquer that mountain... But neither did David when he killed Goliath.

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Sidetrack, if you like 'raw' debates on sensitive issues, you may wanna check out "Wafa Sultan" on YouTube. Hahaha, I salute her!!!!!! Admire her boldness to speak her mind and her calm composure during the debates. This woman, she knows her stuff! Whereas the opposition parties got emotionally stirred up with hands that started 'flying' everywhere, and speaking with extreme absoluteness and biasness. They could have failed GP big time! Hahahaha... It was said, empty vessels make the loudest noise! Hahaha. That's the furthest I'm gonna say, I shall omit my views on that topic here.

I think you really should watch it... hahaha.

BEHOLD!!!!!! You are just about to read a MIRACLE fresh from the oven!!!!!!!!!!

Heh.

I tell you, GOD IS AMAZING!! Beyond human's imagination... Beyond human's understanding...

*putting summary writing skill into practice*

It was the Arise and Build weekend 2 weeks ago, but that weekend I was happily away at Tioman. Was supposed to tell my cgl the amount I wanna pledge... I knew God wanted me to give 20% of my salary, BUT I was negiotiating in my mind whether it was inclusive of CPF!!! LOL. In the end, I didn't pledge that week. Hehehe.. Oops.

HOWEVER, I did it the following week and decided to obey God!!! (ie, to give inclusive of CPF) Of course there were doubts inside of me... But at the same time I really wanna give God an amount that represents my love and trust in Him.

And INDEED WE CAN NEVER OUTGIVE GOD. The week after I pledge, I received a pay increment of 32%. THIRTY-TWO. And I haven't even given a single cent!!!!!! Wow, the power of obedience!!!

Now therefore, if you will indeed obey My voice and keep My covenant, then you shall be a special treasure to Me above all people; for all the earth is Mine
Exodus 19:5

And all these blessings shall come upon you and overtake you, because you obey the voice of the LORD your God
Deuteronomy 28:2

Thank God for His promises!!!!!!!!!

“And now, O Lord GOD, You are God, and Your words are true, and You have promised this goodness to Your servant.
2 Samuel 7:28

AMEN!

This is the song that makes people go aaaawwwww....~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_6foPGcWAAo

I remember when I was around 9 or 10... I was lying on my bed at night, perhaps just thinking about God... And I remember vividly the whole scenario... I could actually feel Jesus kneeling right beside my bed, not directly beside my head... But somewhere near the lower half of my body... It was a very blissful and cosy feeling and soon I fell asleep. Hahaha...

My very first encounter with God. Awesome.

“Let the little children come to Me, and do not forbid them; for of such is the kingdom of God. Assuredly, I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God as a little child will by no means enter it.” - Jesus

Life's like that... Sometimes you feel like a complete failure, sometimes better... But whatever it is, Life goes on... And we just gotta pick ourselves up and, for goodness' sake, move on.

I encourage myself a lot... That's one of the survival skills we ought to learn I think... (And another is the 'act blur' skill according to Da Ren Lol. Agree.) If not I think I'd probably be dead somewhere...

Haha, sounding solemn here. Ya I am la... I need a night's sleep to recover haha. Then I'll be back to myself again...

My PE teacher once told my dad that I have a never-say-die attitude... Perhaps it's true... Gotta fight till the end!!!!!! Hu ka sha ka!! It's a mental torture sometimes though. Gotta press in towards my dream nevertheless. And please don't tell me it's hard... It kinda irritates me.

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Have been hearing a lot of gossips recently... Given a choice, I'd rather not hear/know anything 2nd/3rd/4th hand. I have selective memory haha, and I am bad in remembering gossips... (Or redundant chemistry or maths equations) Cos most of them are distorted info anyway. Gossips are really really unhealthy!!!!!!!!!!!! Can't stand it. If ever you hear me gossiping about someone, please stop me!!!!!!!!!!! And I give you permission to shoot "Can you stop being so bitchy!"

Ok just some really raw, unprocessed/unrefined thoughts.

Hahahahaha. An idea came upon me this morning and now I'm super duper ultra excited!!!! LOL... Can't contain it! Thanks Kailin n Bird for supporting...

Will say more when everything's finalised. LOL...

As if the cello instrument is not emo enough....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bal1gRVvyJU (Love Me Tender-Combined power of 12 cellists)

Check this out... Lol.

Woah. It's been a tremendous week...
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Thank goodness my Monday has been kind to me... Zero mistake at work! Incredible. I think God must have lent me a hand, a leg, a brain... Hehehehe. It was also my first time in a SUBARU WRX, controlled by a skillfully reckless guy. Lol. It was damn thrilling, as if in an arcade game. Lol. I simply love speeeeeed.
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Highlight for this month is probably the orchestra performance last weekend... It was a great time with the cellists lol. Our relationships have blossomed tremendously just this week alone... And I'd say the cello section is the closest-knitted section in the orchestra wahaha. Though the other 3 cellists have been presidents of their schools' orchestras, there is no air around them... Unlike those HIGH and MIGHTY ones you sometimes see...... We are simply music lovers hehe... Playing music because we love it and not because of other motives which I do not wish to mention.
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There's a fine margin between wanting to do something and willingness to learn it.
And a fine margin between sharing and being plain bitchy.
Which I may wanna elaborate more in the near future...













Family picture with our spouses Lol.
From left: Lisa, me, Elgin
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There were only 3 cellists on Day 1, and I was the one sitting alone behind the 2... Lol.. Steph kept teasing me la. Lol... The girl playing cello alone at the back.. wahaha. It was kinda rush when we got up the stage... Could barely take a breath before we started to play... But thankfully it went well...












Day 2 plus Marilyn, looking the happiest. Lol...





















Hehe, guess which is mine! Lol...

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We totally gabra-ed it on Day 2. Maybe half of the orchestra were still half-asleep... There were quite a few 'bombs'.. Lisa and I actually smiled at each other on stage cos we both played wrongly at the same time. That was actually a nice moment I think... I mean the smiling not the wrong playing haha. Performance was kinda erm..... Thankfully there was the choir (to cover up...? LOL) which I think was real AWESOME. They actually did it in 2 weeks. Incredible!!! And well done.
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Not forgetting KAILIN's 21st Birthday Celebration!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY again and again and again... Lol.. Seemed like I've said that so many times... Wahaha, it was great fun hanging and crapping around with my zone members lol...

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To be continued...
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Haha. I'm dead. Looking like some mutant now... As if my genetic code has been crudely altered by the UV rays... BANANA BOAT ALOE VERA GEL has been my saviour. Highly recommended for hot bods. LOL..

Went to Sentosa with a few friends and I tell you... I thought I stepped into a foreign land. LOL... Shan't elaborate...

Lol... From left: Me, Elgin, Sandman, Marilyn

Both are pro pianists and cellists... Salute! Hehehe, I'd need yearsss to reach where they are now. But I always think, if you're at Level 1 now, do your best at Level 1 before proceeding any further... Thy shall encourage thyself... Haha...

Eh sigh... I must confess that I haven't been practising my cello!!!!! The thought of unloading it from its case... Tuning it (by ear!!)... And blablabla always make me think twice or thrice or.. Sigh...... Such ill discipline... So my progress is at snail pace now... Or even slower... I can't go on like that... Hmmm... I must do something about it...

Tmr's piano lesson and I'm not mentally prepared!!! Haven't practised any new songs for the past week... Hopefully I can pass the 2 songs I've been practising... This is bad. Atrocious behaviour and attitude from me...

Must be having too much fun recently... LOL... May I start afresh next week.

Cai and I looking a little too happy... LOL...

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Can't get enough of the beach and the sea! And vball! For those who play vball, please ask me along in future!!!

I feel very discriminated!!!

I don't know if it's the impression I portray, or others are just lazy to find out... So they always assume these few things...

1) I shop a lot
2) I club a lot
3) I am the gu niang sort

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Haha whatever la~ They can think whatever they wanna think...

Anyway, I have 2 free movie tickets hahaha, waiting for a nice movie to pop by and someone to watch with... Any recommendation? The last movie I watched was Ratatouille which I almost went to watch it again with my tuition kids hahaha.

By the way! One of my tuition kids got FIRST for English and Chinese!!! Powerrrr......... She reads a lot so it's no wonder. Her mum was so happy she bought her a Jack Russell!! Yay can play with it the next time I go hehehehe. Wish to have a dog too... Woof.

Wanted her to go Sentosa with me too... But she insisted that she didin't want cos she didn't want me to spend money on her... Of course I don't mind.. What a thoughful kid~

The Angel In White Dress (Part II)

An Angel in disguise
Is perhaps in your life
Though eyes may not see
His blessings will not cease
Quietly he comes
In the stillness of the time

-Inspired by the 'Angel in white dress' while showering.

LOL... I think I will still find this angel joke funny after a year... LOL...

The Angel In White Dress (Part I)

Haha, oh man... I'm so 'well burnt' LOL... As described by my boss. LOL. Machiam describing a steak... Try this next time, "Can I have it well burnt?" lol..

Haha, went to our usual place "Ke Ai Ji" for dinner ytd and to catch up... Bird has just been promoted by us to the 'Angel in White Dress' LOL... Congrats and well done Birdy!! We are ever so proud of you!!

You know that night, I couldn't sleep cos of my burnt skin... So I thought of a lot of things.. Like Tioman and bla and when the Angel flashed through my mind, I burst out laughing. LOL.. You girls never fail to make my day man. LOL.

Off for a long-procrastinated jog!

Yu hu~

I'm back to Civilisation after 3 days in laid-back Tioman... It was great! Forgot about life for a while... Soaked up a little too much sun and now I'm like a roasted (insert an animal). Hehehe. Xiao Bai no more!

Taken from the jetty... This was where we stayed...

View from our room.. It was so near the sea I was woken up by the sound of crashing waves!

A little sunset

At low tide

And it's emo time! Reading by the beach alone at night...

Many many fish near the shore

CLASSIC!!! A cat staring at the dried fish above!!!

Cat resting below my chair... I think the population of cats there is more than human's.

Father n I

LOL.. This angmoh kid got a little too friendly with me... She came and sat on my scorched laps!!! Painfulness. Lol then we cam-whored together.

As Night merged with Day

Driving the light away...

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Hmmm, I spent about half the time alone since my Father kept sleeping in the room!! Hahaha. So it was pretty good too. Went swimming... picking corals... swinging,reading, dozing on a hammock.. lol.. more swimming.. watching the sea..

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2nd night was the best! We befriended a group of regular divers from Sg and some locals so we chatted into the night... Someone taught me how to throw a dart! Nice. It was a very family kinda feeling... Just that the number of men greatly outnumbered the females. Haha.

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I may be going there again next March to dive with them! It'll be real cool man. Supposed to go last week with Cai but my dad didn't allow. Boo.. Discovered that some of them skydive too!!!! YES!! Found my kakis.. One day I must do it! Lol. You know what's the ultimate thing? It's to skydive and land into the sea to dive underwater. LOL...

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So if anyone wanna come with me, you're greatly welcome! Anyone ya haha. Good things must share. Haha...

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*In awe of the wonders of God*

Aiyo, why are you guys so amused by me being fat. LOL... One thing about me, the happier I am the more I will eat hahahaha... Directly proportional one. Lol... Good lor. Now I'm you bai you pang. Hahaha. Sigh~

Erm I shall move on to something else...

I've been wanting to talk about this for months - the D (for domineering) people. It's good to have them around, they are always the ones getting things done, keeping things in order. However, too much of something is not good.

Take my boss as an excellent example. I respect him a lot. Not because of his position/importance but simply because he respects me as well. He has every reason to scold/raise his voice at me, but he didn't. He remains composed and patiently teaches me the right way to do things. *Salute!* He has every reason to command me around, but he didn't. He says his 'please's and 'thank you's.

He is firm yet reasonable. Let's face it, a loud scolding doesn't work anymore. (Getting a little absolute here..) It may be effective 20 years ago, but people have since learnt the fine art of fighting for their rights (or they'd call it 'rebel'). Scoldings are just a big loud nothing. It's not a matter of being teachable when the teaching method is 'wrong' in the first place. (wrong as in inappropriate)

We gotta realise that most of the time, the unspoken things are ironically louder than the things we hear. That is, in a scolding, yes we hear words. But even louder are a sense of rejection and disapproval. And the latter lingers in a person longer than words.

Of course I'm not talking about scolding a kid. I totally side parents who do that when necessary. I'm talking about people who have reached a certain level of maturity and sensibility, when scoldings are just big dramas.

What do you think?
Refutation is welcomed.

Myself, I'm still learning too...

Hehe, today's rehearsal was slightly different at least for me... Cos the piano was included!!! And the pianist was Sofi!!! She plays 10x (or more) better than me and she's also a very nice person to talk to. Came to know that she always goes back to school to practise the piano even on a Sunday!! YES!!!! So great, I will join her every Sunday if I can!

Can't wait!!! She's really inspiring. Oh so that is one of my plans - to sneak into NAFA to practise piano. Hehehehe. (if you can see it, you can have it! Hehehe) Anyway, our orchestra will be performing next weekend during services. So watch out for her!

Eh sigh, went to shopping for clothes today and I'm now really convinced that...

I've grown FATTER!!!! Hahahahaha. More of me to love now! Hehehe.

But Bird, buffet is still on ok!!!!!! Lol. Haiya... Gotta devise some plans again. Lol... Now that I don't have to give tuition... Hmmm........ Hahaha.

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Good old Blake
Sat by the lake
Eating his half-baked cake.

Lol. Wow... You think I have the potential to be a poet??? Lol... Waha, pardon me... Currently reading a book compilation of William Blake's poems... And trying very hard to understand. Haha. I have come to suspect that some poets don't even know what they are writing about. Lol. Or maybe it's simply too complicated for me...

Thee thou thine thy
Time to say goodbye!

Weekends are never enough for me. HELLo Monday. =P

The nicest thing that happened today was an impromptu meetup with Steph for dinner haha. Went to our very usual places again - the Esplanade Library and Marina Square food court.. Even sat at our usual seats.. LOL.. Must breakthrough man.. hahaha.

We talked about music... About our dreams!! 101 things we wanna do (on stage) and laughed about them... Lol.. But know that deep down inside we really wanna do (some of) them!!! Wahaha.. It was really funny la. I shall not reveal. Lol. But I always believe in the power of confession!! Hahaha..

And also she mentioned that I am being talked about quite often... "??!!" I was quite taken aback.. Anyway, now I have a new aim to work towards - to be my zone's keyboardist!!! A lot of things to work on since my niche is not in improvising... Mine always turns out horrible hahaha. Nevertheless, when I put my heart in it, things will only get better! (Saying that by faith haha)

So hmmm... I should start somewhere somehow right? Hahaha.. I actually have devised some plans which will definitely do my piano playing a lot of good. If things go my way, I will implement them by next month.

In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.
Proverbs 3:6

Hehe today has been great!

Prayer meeting was really really good! God was there and I'm sure He heard our prayers! I'm really excited about seeing our prayers coming to past!!

*Sing* We don't deserve of You what we ask...

But God will still give the best to us..

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Oh and today I had the honour to watch a pre-publicized drama production! It was by invitation only and hehe thanks Gary for asking. Lol, it was the funniest thing I've ever seen.. Lol.. That I laughed so hard I cried. LOL... It was titled "The Golden Years" and the gist of the story is how age should not be a limit and that senior citizens can still play a part in society.

Er ok.. It doesn't sound interesting right. LOL.. But yea you gotta see it to know hahaha...

Best take-away: Women nowadays don't like floppy disk, they prefer hard disk.

LOL..

Why can't people just leave me alone!!!!!!!
And why must I always be the one who give in!!!!!!!!

?????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Playing music is fun... It brings you into another world... But not when someone is BLASTING the tv!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Huuuu xiiiiii..... GOD PLEASE TEACH ME HOW TO BE MORE PATIENT UNDERSTANDING AND LOVING!!!! (I can't change the situation but I can change my attitude!! Wah.. LOL)

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Ok, anyway, ytd's piano lesson was quite hmmm... Bad? As in my performance.. My mind was quite shut off then.. Played quite sloppily and kept playing the wrong notes... Boooo...

"You don't understand the importance of SLOW practice..."
"You need to play louder..."
"The way you play the staccato is wrong..."

Hahahaha... Quite a few points to take home... Eh sigh... I was rushing to complete the song due to time constrain and my piano is too loud to play any louder!!! So I'm used to playing relatively gently... Boooo... She is always giving me new pieces to practise and now I have 3 pieces yet to be 'cleared'!! Another 1 I will put it on hold for the time being. This is quite mad... But THOU SHALL NOT GIVE EXCUSES!!!

Haha, anyway I always tell Steph I like NAFA's piano rooms or they call them studios? I'm not sure.. And she always gives me a are-you-crazy?! look.. LOL.. Hahaha.. Eh I'm serious lor. Though the room is tiny with just a piano but that's enough already!!! Imagine there's no one to disturb you!!! It's a luxury!! At least for me hahaha... And I won't have to disturb others too...

If only I have the money!!! I'd sound-proof a small part of my house!! And happily stay there!! Hahaha..

Hmmm.........

It's been a glorious week thus far!!!

Hahahaha.. Now I understand why people always refer their instruments as husbands/wifes!!! They have the ability to make you damn high and happy but at the same time can cause you much mental sufferings hahahaha.. And I can't keep my hands off them! Lol... And I can't stop thinking of them! And I wish I can be home with them all day!

Hehehehe. =)

Give me some time!!! I'm on my (long) way!!!

As much as I have progressed for the past months, I'm very much still an amatuer musician striving to improve every time I play... And I'm thankful to have a handful of people I can look up to! My teachers have been of tremendous help! And my fellow musician friends keep me motivated and encouraged!

I always pray for God to multiply my little talent! That I can use it for His glory! Amen!!

He must increase, but I must decrease.
John 3:30

Hi guys!!! I'm so excited and happy!!! Hahahaha...

It was such a glorious yesterday!!! LOL... Something I very much freaked out over turned out to be a small deal!!! Phew... (Thank you Bird for simmering me down!) and piano lesson was fantastic and fun!!! =)

I aim to complete a piece every week so gotta make use of every free time I have! That's why I love going home!!! Hehehehehe... Wish I can have a free day all to myself!! But sadly, that only happens when I'm sick. Hahaha.. But of course I'd rather be busy than sick hahahaha...

Anyway! You may wanna check this out:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rZ1_M_L_RSI (Billy Joel - Piano Man)

Chanced upon this few days ago and I've been listening to it ever since!!! I think Alice will like this, it's a combo of harmonica and piano!!! Hahaha... It's possible to play both together!!!

Sing us a song, you're the piano man!!
Sing us a song tonight!!
We're all in the mood for a melody!!
And you've got us feeling alright!!

Yay!

Is the army's condition that bad???

Someone in it told us that he hasn't heard the sound of laughter and music for a very long time! Until yesterday... All he hears every day are vulgarities and complaints... Goodness, get a life man...

There's a saying...

2 persons look out of a prison,
1 sees mud,
the other sees stars.

Of course I can't comment much since I haven't been and never will be in an army but what I do know is, our attitude and perspective make a hell lot of difference in our lives...

And we all have a freedom of choice... To choose to be grumpy or choose to be positive! It's all up to us...

Well, just a little thought and a reminder to myself as well hehehe...

"Show me how to love... Like You have loved me."

We all sang that. But have you realised how huge the implication is... It means to love someone undeserving of your love... Someone who breaks your heart again and again... who say words that hurt you...

It takes a lot of strength to sing that if you can digest it...

Aren't we all glad to have God as our perfect role model... He always does something before teaching us how to... Now that I have His love, I think it will be kinda selfish of me if I keep it all to myself haha. God, please show me how to love!!! Like you have loved me..

Anyway, to all the choir and orchestra members, you may wanna know a little more about the song 'Messiah'.. So that we can have a deeper understanding and not merely going through the motion of singing/playing just 'another' song..

This song was composed in 1741 by George Frederick Handel right after a battle through depression of which he depended greatly on God. He isolated himself for a good 23 days when he was composing that song... During which he was so moved by the biblical text and his love for God that friends found him sobbing with tears...

You will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart.
Jeremiah 29:12-13

He said this about his experience in writing the chorus, "I did think I did see all Heaven before me and the great God Himself." So wow right... So let's do our best this Wednesday and sing/play as if God is going to appear!!! Haha... At least try!!!

That song is so majestic! I could hardly breathe!! Wednesday please come early! And may I play every note neatly...

Oh it's Friday already. It doesn't seem too long ago when I thought "Phew... Another long week ahead." Soon we will all be real ADULTS........... Haha. Whatever... Come what may.

Haha, it was quite funny today... A male friend of mine Haha... He went into a paroxysm of joy when he received a sms from a lady he fancies, accepting his invitation for a dinner. LOL... Goodness. That was my first time seeing a grown up guy jumping and laughing with exhilaration HAHAHAHA..... HAHA... The power of love... Wow... LOL....

Had piano lesson today and it was very fun. I really like it a lot... I'm only left with 2 more topics for theory... Thinking if I should chiong my Grade 6 as well... Exam's in March anyway... But I think my teacher will freak out... I don't know... After taking A level... I have more faith in other exams. Lol... Let's see how it goes...

She was really cute today but I could tell she was exhausted... She taught me again how to balance both hands so that the hand playing the accompaniment will not drown the melody line... After a few tries, I managed to get it and she was so happy!!! HAHAHA... Quite funny... She went "Yes yes!!" Lol... "You must persevere ok!" Lol... Cos that's the key to getting a distinction... Hahahaha she totally made my day until...

I received a call at 1130pm... All I heard was a sense of... Loneliness? Disappointment? Fear? I can't find the right word to use... Maybe it's a mixture of all... Hmmm...

Today's really interesting!!!!

Sofa's finally here!

Piano's finally tuned!! It took him a good 1.5 hours to tune!!! My piano's quite a challenge cos it hasn't been tuned for years... haha. It feels so much fresher now!! lol..

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Went to Miss Clarity Cafe to celebrate dear Bird's birthday!!!

The menu!!! "Where happy people meet..." Hahaha

Xiao Niao and I! Look at the wall!!

Dear Cai!! Thanks for making your long way down!!!

Dennis! Why suddenly so shuai in this pic... Lol..

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Birdy I love you! Happy 20! And I will still sing u a bird-day song when I'm 70 and toothless! HEHEHEHEHE... May your wishes come true! (So cliche!!!!!) LOL...

Hahaha goodness... I'm quite shy to say this... I'm actually watching Meteor Garden again!!!!!! LOL... Hahaha... Eh Lei is the most ultimate emo person ever. Even Xiao Ji loses to him... LOL.. And the theme song "Qing Fei De Yi" is really quite a sad one... Hmmm....

Anyway about the piano incident, I'm quite cool about it now... Every morning is a brand new day!!! I don't hold grudges for long hahahah. I think it makes one look like a WITCH!!! Hahaha. I've shifted my piano to another location further away from the TV, just in time for it to be tuned later!!

My tuition kids made my day!! Erm, Children's Day was last Monday but they only got their gifts today hehehehe... Upon receiving Vivian said "Waah so cute! Thankeww!" and Kelly also went 'Thankeww~' At that point, my heart melted a bit!! They sounded really sincere...

Hmmm, I think money shouldn't be the barrier that stops one from learning... And I think it shouldn't be the dominant motive for us to do things... Don't know if I'm unrealistic or what, but even if the parents can't afford to pay me regularly... I will still commit to them and finish the race together with them...

My schedule is quite tight and it kinda pissed me that some (only one actually) people become whiney and stuff... Acting clingy... When I have to cancel a dinner with him... It's damn suffocating. It was also my wrong for not "respecting" him and his time... But who can blame unforeseen changes!!!!! Hope my future bf is not excessively possessive!!! If not I will fleeeeee!!! (Nice try at rhyming... lol =P) Hahaha...

Gotta take it like a man
Steady and strong
Not a lot of fuss and carrying on...
- Michelle Wright "Take It Like A Man"

I hate people to be meddling with my stuff... Most of the time they end up being abused. This is the 3rd time in 2 days. First my keychain... then my bag... and now...

I just discovered that my bro put a hot mug on my piano... And there was a small 'puddle' of water at the base of the mug... DAMN......................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Soon my piano will be eaten up by termites. Great.

I really should just move my piano into my room... Why didn't I do that earlier!!!!!!!!!! Retarded!!!

I have been very patient already.......

I think this is the final straw......

Feel like crying...

I'm quite confused. Should I or should I not....... Hmmm...

My colleague has just asked if I wanna give her daughters piano lessons... I really don't mind. However... Sigh. I'd better not say anything provocative here... Hell knows who are reading. Let's see how the first month goes first... Hmmm... Some money is just not worth earning...

I think my vocab has deterioriated to a miserable state, limited to simply "good", "bad", "nice"... So much for subscribing to Doctor Dictionary, where I am supposed to learn a chim word daily... LOL.. Hahaha..

Hmm... I'm hungry.

Never once in my short history have I heard this.

Father: Go and play your piano.

!!! But then... It was because he wanted to use the com... But still... It was quite nice to hear. Hahaha...

Anyway, it's been a great week thus far. Days are passing by so quickly, I don't know if it's good or not... Went for a piano concert with Leon on Tue and sad to say, it was my first time watching a solely piano performance. He kept tickling my funny bone!!!! And I nearly audibly burst out laughing in the midst of a performance... That would be darn embarrassing. LOL! But you know me... I'm quite capable of that... HAHAHA...

yes! One fine day...

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After that my dad brought me for supper at Newton Circles... I faithfully ordered the same thing again..

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I will love you... =) Until my dying days...

Have been meeting my dad for lunches for the past 3 days... It's quite nice to be together even if it's just plain eating... Actually I don't talk much cos most of the time, nothing quite intrigue me to the extent that I want to talk about it... Hahaha... But of course I always enjoy meaningful dicussions/sharing or friendly debates where one's opinions are expressed... Unrestrictedly.

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Met dear Bird for dinner yesterday hahaha.. Actually I nearly cancelled it cos I thought I wouldn't master the piano piece I'm supposed to 'present' tmr... But thankfully, I had time to practise before that... It seemed like I haven't gone out with her for ages. Hahaha.. It was a great time with her! Hehehe.. Very looking forward to end of this month hehehehehehe.... =)